Hum.. Recently i've realised how oblivious i was when i was 14 and growing up. I never seemed to appreciate anything I do and the fact that I was so stupid to not notice that somethings have meanings.

I only realised this last saturday, after my friends had left. =_= We were playing the piano and she'd told me about how I'd played a really hard-core song in a class concert, which the other classmates agreed. That time I thought the song was simple and they'd be able to play it too. I didn't appreciate the piece much then, because all i remembered when playing the piece was all the techniques (? i think that's right) and sounds that my very strict piano teacher had told me to express when i play the piece. I remembered how good it was suppose to have sounded then because it brought back really annoying memories of my naiveity and timid self after the concert =__= urghhh bad memories. So I went and tried playing it again like how i use to play it and this time I was surprise to realise that the music was really nice. =_= and how deaf i was when playing the piano.
It made me feel like such a robot and now that I think about it, I still am. My head is soo thick, and compared to my friends i'm always a step behind. =_=
Garrrh. and it hasn't even changed since then.  but yeah I can't believe how recently i'm remembering my past and how I was like. soo annoying. makes me wanna scream soo much.

oweijaflwkjexoqjporiv. my head's really messed up.

Uni is soo soo boring.

I should be studying but lately i've been reading paranormal novels! :::3333
hahahahaha~ out of all of the series i read, I only liked two of them. =_= humph. so much for reading it.
but I'm going to continue reading the ones that haven't finished and don't like :\ soo bored. because some of the stories plots are pretty interesting.

But i need morreee! hahaha more more more~~ i'm soo bored. as long as its interesting, yes please! xD

My eyes are red
beacause shampoo dripped from my face
while I was washing it.
Its so itchy,
I just was to close my eyes
and say "I hope its ok".

I'm soo bored 8( I need to study and clean the house. dammit.
Sooo much work to do.

Lol! kitzorz i just thought about posting most of my story ideas up. How's that? LOL except i maybe get lazy and just skip to the end of the story. hahahahaha

anyways, i think yester day or friday i got one, from my dream. (i've forgotten half of it.
ah! before that, i had the most weirdest dream ever. For some reason it ended with Von Karma (the blue-haired girl  with short hair) being accused of shooting someone in the shoulder on the road. or was she shot? don't remember but it was a weird dream.

back to story ideas. So we have a girl + guy who have known each other since high school and meets again in uni. The girl has been a spy since high school but  guy (thinking as i go because im thinking of the ending. LOL) does not know. (nearly made it into Mr. and Mrs. Smith. haha). Deep down they've always had feelings for each other but they express their love only after a few weeks when they meet again in uni. and the niddle part of the story was not thoguht out. can't be bothered. Lol of course in the middle part of the story, the guy slowly begins to notice that the girl had something on most of the time and maybe one day the girl tells him his secrets. Very amazed, he wishes he could be like her and everything. She really doesn't obhect it much, but fears that his safety. Story progresses and he learns the techniques of being a spy. (i have a feeling i want to give then unnatual agility)
During the end of series: